Crosseyed n' Braindamaged

Does anyone out there have a damned light...I left my lighter AT FUCKING DENNY'S!!!

Whip it...Whip it goooood!

Ok, so I found about 10 new uses for a Shillelagh. All of them very naughty. Well, maybe one of them was not...but who cares, heheh. Good night out though, laughs and all.

Possibly another Mikey's Movie Madness night...W00000H0000! Always a good time.

I also need to give my buddy Rob a call...haven't talked to him since I was last out there(Chicago's Wrigleyville).

Things going sooooo fast these days, I almost can't keep up!

Ayayay, looking at my last post...jeez I can be soooo damned melodramatic sometimes. Blech, I hate it when I get like that. I think I need to fly some friendly skies soon. Just to take some of the edge off. Ah well.

The website is really coming along, my friend Brandon has some phenomenal pictures that he has done over the years. I saw some tonight and I was floored. He has an eye more than worthy of some of the biggest fashion magazines. But he has a lot more class than any of them. Can't wait till the site's finished.

AAAARGH!!!!

I need to buy a birthday gift for a 1 year old little boy(who is, by the way, cuter than all hell...Kudos Garzaman!) If there are any suggestions(wink wink) please place them in the comment area or maybe an e-mail or two...though it looks like I just missed ya tonight. Ah well.

So enough of this stupid bullshitting on the blog already and get back to work damnit!!!

Ok, ok, I was just about to finish.

SLACKER!!!!

SLAVEDRIVER!!! :P

So what, who cares?

where have all the good men gone
the gods who stood on high
and made the world
I am a child looking for reasurance
for the world is nearing it's end
and there is no place to turn

...do I even care?

John Wayne in a dress, now THAT's funny!

Ok, so like the third worst thing you can do in this world is tell people you have a secret. Reason being that everyone and thier friggin mother wants to know what it is.

Well here is a secret: If you figured out how to decript this you are very clever indeed, I sleep in the nude when ever possible! Enjoy the mental image!

It is encrypted for the protection of the innocent. Ok, so maybe there aren't many innocent people in my life...but there are a lot of crack addicts so I'm sticking with government issue brand of paranoia. Anyways, back to my website design. ;)

Bloody Hell...

Ok, so I got realy goddam drunk last night. I am talking blasted. I acted like an ass and developed a lovely headache. I finally made it home around 10:30 this morning, and decided to check e-mails and stuff. I got a message from a friend that was kind of puzzling me for a while. And as I am rather well endowed mentally, I finally figured it out. Can't really go into details on this, but suffice it to say...I now have yet another bloody secret to keep. You know what sucks about secrets?

YOU CAN'T TELL ANYONE ABOUT THEM!!!!!!

Ok, so I'll admit it, I want to send out like a dozen e-mails telling everyone about this one(and it's a doozy) but I can't(and WON'T) because I am not that kind of person. Though I've considered making a blog that no one can read with all of the secrets I have bottled up inside. Just to get them out of my system.

Damn...

People annoy the shit out of me.

This secret isn't going to keep itself either...and when it finally breaks two, maybe even three, people I care about are going to get very hurt. And there's nothing I can do about it.

Some days it just doesn't pay to be so fucking clever.

New feature!!!

I finally got around to adding in a links area on my side bar! I know, big deal right. But I will be adding many good links here as well as some other blogs worth noting.

So keep an eye out.

Also, had a good long conversation with some of my other personalities and have come to the conclusion that I need to do more exercise. This has a lot to do with the fact that after running around the city last night my legs felt like I'd been beat during the night. So, I will be doing a walk every day in the morning if I can wake up anytime before 12:00 in the afternoon.

Blech. Stupid insomnia.

Then again, I have a tendency to feed into my insomniac tendencies. I think I may try hypnotism...I can have myself programmed! WooooHoooo!

There's that nagging voice in the back of my head again.......bad idea, BAD IDEA!!!!!!

Jack and Coke for the soul

So, I had an infinitely satisfying night out with my old friend Rob. It's always fun to hang out with someone who's life is more messed up than mine.

Not to say he isn't doing well. He has a great job, lots of cool friends, and a really kick ass apartment in the city. It's just, he's surrounded by like 50 times more drama than I ever will be. And that makes me feel a little less fucked up.

It's also good to get his perspective on my life, he tends to be brutally honest and becomes sadistically honest when he drinks. Like a limelight being shone right into my life.

I also had a nice moment of silence in my head after I hung out with him and his friends, when I went to Denny's to flush the chemicals out of my system.

Always a good thing when the voices all shush. Though it got me thinking about what I miss most about having a girlfriend/significant other. I miss those comfortable silences...Being able to hang out with someone and not having to SAY or DO anything at all. Tis nice, and makes a lot of the insanity that comes with a relationship seem less of an issue.

Damn, I need to blow something up.

I miss my kitty... :(

Watch'n Star Wars...is that my cat or what?

If I were ever to own a dog...he would look like this. 

What goes around, comes back and beats your ass with a big fucking stick!

Ok, so the e-mail was recieved and the reply came. I won't mince words on the content, it has nothing to do with this post. Suffice it to say that the whole thing was a mistake. I need to learn my lessons better. I think I should start listening to that little voice in the back of my head that says, "Uhm yeah, that seems like a bad idea".

Ok, so that aside. I am starting to get things going in a better direction I think. The Business is starting to shape up and shit. We will be putting up a website in about 2 weeks or so. And I will post it to this site for anyone who has a need for technical support.

And yes, I still smoke too damned much...but I am doing better. Down to 1 pack every 4 days or so. (minus any night I hang at Denny's, if I'm drink'n I'm smoke'n...coffee that is)

You know, sometimes my sister's music ain't so bad..............

BOOHBAH

Here's to the most psychotic kids show ever invented.

Boohbah

and the runner up... Lazy Town

I really got to stop staying up so damned late...

Masochism for the Soul

Ok so yeah, it's official...I am a masochist of the highest level.

I just sent an e-mail to my Ex. That would be the girl that broke my heart into shards and then ground them under her heel just to be sure. But then I always did like to do things the hard way.

I need a hobby, I think that would keep me out of trouble.

I can't really say why I did it...I was just downloading some Descendants and thought of her and thought, "Hey, why the hell not?".

Ok, so now I can think of about 35000 reasons "Why not".

Hindsight's a bitch sometimes.

I wonder if I should join a 12 step group or something?

Random thought of the day:
Anyone else find it ironic that John and George went first?

Oh yeah, almost forgot...here's a pic of the rain in Idaho. BLECH! Oi oi oi! 

Here's me and Brett at Wall Drug in South Dakota on our way back home. 

Here's Portland on our way out and back here to the midwest. 

more sunset 

And this sunset was more beautiful than words can describe. 

The sand was like powder! 

These next few are (obviously) of the Pacific Ocean. Absolutely beautiful! 

Here is our first site of Portland. Half the town is on a mountain...How cool is that! 

Ok, here is me in Montana just before the Rockies. Damn, I needed a shave. 

We've Gone On Holiday By Mistake!

So, we finally made it to Portland. Or at least somewhat close to Portland. By the way, Portland at night is simply the most beautiful city anywhere. We ended up driving around for an hour or two trying to find the campsite that was near there. The one we ended up setting up tents in the rain at. The next morning we made an attempt to brew some coffee. We were successful in making the coffee and good coffee it was, but there was no sugar to be found anywhere. We had forgotten to pack some. So I drank sugarless coffee. NOT FUN. And to top the morning off, as I was packing away the kettle the handle on it decided to break off. This put us in a relatively fine mood for the drive to the coast. We drove through Portland again, this time during the daylight. Oh, and more rain. It is very beautiful during the day as well. Just about the cleanest city I've ever encountered. And I've been to many. The people are incredibly nice too, just plain happy to be alive. It's weird.

We made our way to the coast. This took us through some even more lovely mountainous country. We finally got to the KOA in Astoria and found that it is not only close to the seaside, it's right across the street from the state park with all the beaches. After getting ourselves checked in and registered, we set up tents and discovered that we had miscalculated the days and could stay another day at that site. So we decided to register for another day. Little did we know that there was a fishing expo about to happen there and we couldn't get the site we had already set up our tents on for the next day. We got another site 3 spaces down. And were going to have to tear down our camp the next day and set it up again in the new location. *rolls eyes*. So after going through all of that hassle we finally got to the beach and saw the Pacific Ocean. What a site. I tell ya, it actually feels bigger than the Atlantic.

One thing I really love about camping is CAMPFIRES. Yes folks I'm a pyromaniac and I love to burn stuff. BBQ anyone? BWAHAHAHAHAHAH. Of course we were severely overcharged for firewood by the KOA people but we only ended up buying a couple of bundles cause like I said the people out there are really nice. A couple of our fellow campers had brought their own firewood and so were more than happy to loan us same firewood. We ended up with sooo much I was burning till about 4 in the morning (6 am our time) on the last night we were on the coast. We left the next morning for Portland to actually see what the city was like from the inside. After diving around a bit and rather quickly finding a 99¢ per hour parking facility right in the middle of the city (weird huh?). We got in and found clean streets, nice people, and one of the most unique malls I have ever seen. It is a 4 building mall covering 4 actual blocks and split by 2 streets made up of red brick pavement. And they have beautiful sculptures inside and glass ceilings of varying shapes. It was fantastic.

We also needed to find a rather inexpensive Hotel near the city and had no internet connection and so we set out to find an internet cafe or something to do some looking up. And what should we happen upon but the Portland City Library. This has to be one of the most beautiful libraries I have ever seen since I left New York. And they were really nice there too. We walked in and asked if we could use the internet there and they gave us free one hour passes and quick and easy access to their computer, which they had a lot of. And we found something right around our price range very close to the city. And were finally able to sleep on some real beds. I tell you, after 3 nights of tenting it, that was fantastic. It also fortified us for the trip home.

The homeward trip is coming soon...and what a trip it was.