So, what now?

There's a girl.

An amazing girl, who lights up any room she walks into.

And she just happens to be my girlfriend.

I met her on MySpace(I know, I know...not really a good idea). But I didn't mean to meet anyone on MySpace, you know? It just happened.

I only ever used it to make connections with the friends I have who use it too. But I just started talking to her on messages and thought, "Why not meet her? She could be cool.". Not only is she cool but she is amazing. Yeah I know I said that already, but it bears repeating. We get along on this whole different level. Like two old souls who've known each other for years but got seperated for a while.

I'm not saying I know everything about her, and truth be told, I don't NEED to know all there is to know about her. And that's another thing. I don't even remotely obsess about knowing everything about her. It's like I can take it as it comes. And I am so often pleasantly surprised by what I do find out. I want to spend all the time I can with her for as long as I can.

And there's the problem...how long will I have with her? How long till she breaks my heart too? These are questions that I can't really ask. I don't want this to go away too. But I've realized, all to recently, how short a time we all have with our various happinesses. All I want to do when I see her is tell her how much I love her and how much I want to make her happy for the rest of her life. See her smile with the glowing beauty she radiates everywhere. But can I afford to let that last little part of my heart go? Can I afford to allow this person into my deeper affection?

God, I really hope so.