triumph and sadness

About 3 months ago I decided it was time to learn Javascript. So I picked up a couple of books and started to teach it to myself. I even made up a project to help motivate me(a script that handles adding up an order sheet for a Wedding Video & Photography company I do work for). So tonight(or this morning, depending on how you look at it) I finally got the whole thing working properly and to my satisfaction. A moment of achievement in an otherwise dreary week.

Only one problem...and it just hit me suddenly like a ton of bricks. I used to talk to my mom about programming all the time. She was brilliant about programming and I always loved showing her the stuff I could do with the scripting and languages I learned.

Only she'll never see this one...or any of the others to follow it.

You never can tell what's going to get you.

I didn't exactly cry(I don't cry all that much...I wish I did, it would keep me from repressing so much emotion). But I couldn't drive home for 45 minutes.

I hate Mondays.